Heartily Broken
JUST SILENCE… It’s all I’m left with, cuz you left, with every bit of happiness I ever felt. It wasn’t even a struggle, why wasn’t it a struggle? Simple words which I never dreamt of hearing them together, not from you, not for us, not after everything we’ve been through. Wish it was a daydream or should i call it a nightmare, none of it is scary as this being neither.
No words can escape out of my mouth even if they do they don’t possess sound just air, like a soulless body even they mimic my state. Yet this endless train of thoughts running in mind exploring all the possible stations of the what ifs!!. Ain’t it an irony? To be stuck in a state of silence when your mind is screaming constantly, tirelessly, and endlessly.
Tears rolling down my face and even they’re searching for your fingertips to save them from falling, but how do I explain them to not search for you anymore. I know the world around me is still moving, even though I cannot fathom the strength to pick up the broken pieces of myself.
My heart’s still beating or is it aching, I don’t know anymore!! I don’t understand it anymore. Why do I have to be the one feeling all this? Did you not? Or did you already felt it all? If you did, why would you make someone else go through this ? How could you? Too many questions and silence is all I get as an answer.
“Heart-Breaking, constantly aching
Simply soul shattering,
Dreams vanishing, hopes diminishing
Life constantly battering
ME!…WHY ME?”
